After Jordan told me everything that happened night, we were both silently staring at the ceiling. It must've been terrible for him see someone in that position and that someone being me was horrific for him.
"I'm sorry. I don't remember much that night", I said softly.
"Don't scare me like that ever again. Tell me what happened at the school", Jordan asked me.
I looked at him worried and told him everything that happened during the lunch and the things Violet said about me. By the time I told him everything he started pacing around the room.
"That bastard.", Jordan gritted with a clenched fist
"Jordan ,Please. Eva took care of it. Don't get angry. Please", I pleaded him.
"You should've told me earlier. I would have traced every inch of the school to find that bastard who did that to you?", Jordan was seething with accusing look towards me.
"I wasn't ready and I knew you would react exactly like this"
"What you did was wrong, Grace?"
"I know, Stop it !!!", I shouted irritatingly and he glared at me.
This boy doesn't know when to stop.
I glared him back with a 'try-me' look. We were in the middle of the intense glaring when a light knock in the door disturbed us.
My mom was standing looking at us smiling.
"Its time for dinner, both of you come down", my mom left the room after throwing an adorable smile. We both stared at each other and started laughing. "If it isn't for the food", Jordan said holding his hand out for me.
Dinner was awkward, my parents talked about the complaint they lodged against the school and all the things that happened at the school. Everyone was silent, Violet was across the table looking down the whole, parents were talking through their eyes and Jordan was shifting on the chair uncomfortably like me.
I am not the only one.
Finishing my dinner and taking all the medications, I went back to my room. I was staring at the window when my dad came to my room.
"Hey sweetie, how are you feeling?", He asked settling next to me.
"I am feeling fine dad. I am sorry that I made you guys worried", I said hiding the lump in my throat.
"Something's bothering you ", He said as a statement rather than a question. Hearing those words, my eyes started to well up .
"I am tired, dad", I said wiping my tears.
"Tell me what's bothering you. I can't let my sweet daughter go through all of this alone. Do you think I will leave by yourselt?. If so you are truly mistaken", He said mockingly.
"I think something is wrong with me, dad. Otherwise, why would people hate me when I didn't do anything to them? They have no reason to be jealous since I don't have an ideal body and I wear my glasses most of the time. I rarely make any conversations with other people and don't have any friends", my voice became soft while cryig. My dad was listening to everything. That one question was bothering from the beginning.
"Dad?"
"Yes, honey"
"Are you embarrassed of me?", I asked tears flowing on my cheeks. Though tears were blocking my vision, I could clearly the see the shock in my dad's face.
"What? I would never be embarrassed of you honey. Not at all, you don't know how much I am proud of you", he hugged me tightly. "Those people who don't like you are such losers, who wouldn't like a friend like you?. They are jealous because you are special and precious. I am proud of you. I feel blessed everytime I look at you achieving something, even it's small drawing, I couldn't care less. It really hurts me seeing you like this.I never thought you were going through something like this. I am sorry,baby. I can never see you hurt ", My dad consoled me and cried with me till I let go of the all the emotions within me.
"Grace, I will ask you something and I want you to answer me honestly. Trust me, I won't judge you", my dad said after sometime. I nodded.
"The things that happened that night, you didn't do that for yourself, did you?"
"What? No, No dad, I didn't do anything to myself. I swear", I said holding out my hands.
"Okay then. Remember something, dad loves you more than anything in the world. What hurts you hurts me too."
"I love you dad"
"I love you too, baby"
And then he started telling about how I was born and what all I did as a kid. "I know that this might affect you but I will relieved if you consider seeing a psychiatrist."
I looked at him confused. I knew that what I was going through was not good for my family and friends but talking to a stranger about my situation bothered me a lot. After considering all the options, I finally decided to give it a try. Even if I didn't like it, I was gonna try it for my parents.
"Its fine dad. I can consult one", I said smiling at him. My dad turned holding the door, "Grace". I looked at him. "Don't tell your sister. You are my favorite child", I smiled with him. After my dad left the room, I took my phone and decided to call Eva.
"Hello Grace, How are you?", she spoke with a wheeze
"I am fine, Ev. Are you crying?", I could hear the rustling sound in the background.
"Ev?", I called again after a no reply.
"I was scared that I would lose you. I am afraid to look at you at this condition. I should have known and never should've left the house. I never thought such things will happen. When I saw in the hospital bed lying there without any movement, I felt like it was all because of me. What will I do without you Grace? I love you as my sister." She said sobbing. Hearing her break down for me hurt me.
"I am sorry. It isn't your mistake", I said gently.
"Give me some time and I will visityou. I have to go to school to find that evil creature who put you through this. I want to be okay and I will take care of you. Btw, Jordan called me an hour ago and asked me for more details. I shared everything I knew with him. Don't argue with me for telling him because that's what I am gonna do. I am not gonna do the same mistake again. I will call you tomorrow. I love you. Bye"
"Bye"
I laid down on the bed and staring blankly thinking of drifting to dreamless sleep.
Wrong......
I was in the middle ofnowhere. All I could see was the dark night and leafless trees scattered throughout my visibility. As if on cue, my heart started racing and hair on my neck stood still. My eyes were frantically searching around the area while adjusting my vision to the darkness as if I was thrown from the light.
The slow breeze shaking the trees scared the sh*t out of me. My steps were calculative on the trail. In the distance, among the deep willow, I could see a figure. Since it was very far, I could only see the silhouette.
I was scared to hell, all I could do was walk closer to the figure standing in there. After sometime, I started waving for the figure to notice me. The more I walked the more the figure was going into the trees.
Something was pulling me back. I started running towards the figure at the full force. This time when I was close enough I could see the figure was approaching me.
"HEY", I shouted at the figure.
The figure stopped moving and suddenly the tree at my back fell down. I stood still without even turning around to see the tree. I closed my eyes to reduce the beating and turned to see the tree just a feet away from me. The figure was coming closer. I again started walking towards it. When I was close enough, the figure burst into speckles of light and started forming into a single light form. My legs were shaking heavily and if I took a step I would most probably fall down. Everything was happening in front of me and I was a stone who couldn't do anything about it. When the light started approaching I started sprinting in the opposite direction.
Tell me about my running skills. I didn't take a full two steps and everything started floating after a hit. This time when I was about to land, I saw the cloak with hood on and a hand was covered in tattoos that was peeking through the cloak.
After waking up from the nightmare, I took my sleeping pills and tried hard to sleep. I was staring at the room for hours until sleep embraced me.